1 00:02:23,143 --> 00:02:26,563 This is my place in the Mile End neighbourhood 2 00:02:26,604 --> 00:02:29,315 in Montreal, Canada. 3 00:02:43,535 --> 00:02:47,205 Everybody thinks I am French Canadian. 4 00:02:53,211 --> 00:02:57,006 Because I dream, I'm not. 5 00:02:58,549 --> 00:03:01,718 Because I dream, I'm not. 6 00:03:05,638 --> 00:03:08,682 People who trust only their own truth 7 00:03:08,723 --> 00:03:12,017 call me Leo Lozeau. 8 00:03:42,088 --> 00:03:44,924 They say he is my father. 9 00:03:44,965 --> 00:03:49,552 But I know I'm not his son. 10 00:03:49,593 --> 00:03:52,596 Because this man is crazy. And because I am not. 11 00:03:53,597 --> 00:03:57,392 Because I dream, I'm not. 12 00:04:02,063 --> 00:04:05,191 SOMEWHERE IN A VALLEY IN SICILY. 13 00:04:20,414 --> 00:04:23,750 Because he was partly hidden, I never 14 00:04:23,791 --> 00:04:25,709 saw the face of my real father. 15 00:04:27,085 --> 00:04:29,170 What are you doing to my tomatoes? 16 00:04:29,211 --> 00:04:32,088 I'm giving life to your fucking tomatoes! 17 00:04:32,129 --> 00:04:35,465 Stop it, asshole, you're gonna ruin them! 18 00:04:35,506 --> 00:04:40,219 Who gives a shit?! This load is going to America. 19 00:04:48,143 --> 00:04:50,145 A FEW DAYS LATER, IN AMERICA. 20 00:05:07,829 --> 00:05:10,122 Best ones are in the front. 21 00:05:52,581 --> 00:05:55,667 Faced with my mother's panic, 22 00:05:55,708 --> 00:05:58,335 the doctor didn't dare tell her she'd been impregnated 23 00:05:58,376 --> 00:06:01,087 by a contaminated tomato. 24 00:06:03,431 --> 00:06:08,510 Since that dream, I have fought to be called Léolo Lozone. 25 00:06:09,802 --> 00:06:11,678 No one has the right to say 26 00:06:11,719 --> 00:06:14,179 I'm not Italian. 27 00:06:14,220 --> 00:06:18,223 Italy is too beautiful to belong only to the Italians. 28 00:06:25,897 --> 00:06:31,109 Between my room and Sicily, there are 6889 kilometres. 29 00:06:31,935 --> 00:06:34,795 Between my room and Bianca's place, 30 00:06:35,236 --> 00:06:37,404 there are 5 meters 80. 31 00:06:38,242 --> 00:06:39,586 And yet, 32 00:06:40,930 --> 00:06:43,238 she is so much farther away from me. 33 00:06:46,185 --> 00:06:48,746 "Bianca, my love." 34 00:06:49,913 --> 00:06:52,707 It only takes three words to write 35 00:06:52,748 --> 00:06:55,250 "Bianca, my love"... 36 00:06:57,198 --> 00:07:00,046 I took the shortest way. 37 00:07:48,969 --> 00:07:51,763 Leo! Go to bed! 38 00:07:51,804 --> 00:07:54,139 Léolo! 39 00:07:54,180 --> 00:07:56,515 Léolo Lozone! 40 00:07:56,556 --> 00:07:58,349 My name is Léolo! 41 00:07:58,390 --> 00:08:00,350 Shut up, bozo! 42 00:08:00,391 --> 00:08:02,393 Shut the fucking door, it's freezing. 43 00:08:18,492 --> 00:08:20,702 Leo, go to your room! 44 00:08:55,737 --> 00:08:58,865 I don't try to remember what happens in a book. 45 00:09:01,450 --> 00:09:03,410 All I ask of a book 46 00:09:03,451 --> 00:09:07,329 is to give me energy and courage, 47 00:09:07,370 --> 00:09:10,748 to tell me that there is more life than I can take, 48 00:09:12,750 --> 00:09:15,669 to remind me of the need to act. 49 00:09:23,968 --> 00:09:26,428 It was the only book in the house. 50 00:09:26,469 --> 00:09:29,763 I never wondered how it got here. 51 00:09:33,391 --> 00:09:35,017 It was thick. 52 00:09:35,058 --> 00:09:38,144 The words were pushed together, 53 00:09:38,185 --> 00:09:43,064 requiring enormous effort and concentration to yield their secret. 54 00:09:45,357 --> 00:09:49,903 At home, I never saw anybody read or write. 55 00:09:51,696 --> 00:09:54,740 Television and billboards cluttered my brain. 56 00:09:54,781 --> 00:09:57,450 At the beginning, 57 00:09:57,491 --> 00:10:00,911 I read the underlined passages without really understanding. 58 00:10:03,079 --> 00:10:05,122 I remember wanting to give up 59 00:10:05,163 --> 00:10:07,999 because there were no pictures. 60 00:10:10,584 --> 00:10:12,836 I find my only real joy in solitude. 61 00:10:12,877 --> 00:10:15,754 Solitude is my castle. 62 00:10:15,795 --> 00:10:18,672 That's where I have my chair, my table, 63 00:10:18,713 --> 00:10:20,673 my bed, my breeze and my sun. 64 00:10:20,714 --> 00:10:23,675 When I sit anywhere but in my solitude 65 00:10:23,716 --> 00:10:26,844 I sit in exile 66 00:10:26,885 --> 00:10:29,429 I sit in Fakeland. 67 00:10:32,014 --> 00:10:35,517 Because I dream, I'm not. 68 00:10:38,436 --> 00:10:41,272 Because I dream, I'm not crazy. 69 00:10:41,313 --> 00:10:43,898 I'm not, because I dream. 70 00:10:46,901 --> 00:10:50,195 I had started writing down everything that crossed my mind. 71 00:10:50,236 --> 00:10:53,989 My family had become characters in a fiction 72 00:10:54,030 --> 00:10:56,949 and I spoke of them as if they were strangers. 73 00:11:26,979 --> 00:11:29,606 As far back as I remember 74 00:11:29,647 --> 00:11:33,859 it was the smells and the light that solidified my first memories. 75 00:11:37,654 --> 00:11:39,947 My grandmother had convinced my father 76 00:11:39,988 --> 00:11:42,865 a shit a day keeps the doctor away. 77 00:11:57,004 --> 00:11:58,922 Don't cry, my darling. 78 00:11:58,963 --> 00:12:01,632 Do like mama. 79 00:12:01,673 --> 00:12:03,800 Push, Leo. 80 00:12:06,260 --> 00:12:07,970 Push, my love. 81 00:12:11,098 --> 00:12:13,058 As far back as I remember 82 00:12:13,099 --> 00:12:15,351 it was the smells and the light 83 00:12:15,392 --> 00:12:18,603 that solidified my first memories. 84 00:12:19,378 --> 00:12:22,005 My grandmother had convinced my father 85 00:12:22,046 --> 00:12:24,882 a shit a day keeps the doctor away. 86 00:12:39,791 --> 00:12:41,031 So, every Friday, 87 00:12:41,999 --> 00:12:44,862 we got a laxative shock treatment 88 00:12:45,053 --> 00:12:47,903 to purify us from all the diseases of this world. 89 00:13:50,984 --> 00:13:52,318 Leo! 90 00:14:34,151 --> 00:14:36,403 Come, Leo, come to Daddy. 91 00:14:36,444 --> 00:14:39,362 Come, my boy. It won't hurt. 92 00:14:41,113 --> 00:14:45,425 Shit had become a family obsession. 93 00:14:46,634 --> 00:14:49,928 As far back as I can remember 94 00:14:49,969 --> 00:14:52,596 there was a rat in the bathtub. 95 00:14:52,637 --> 00:14:54,597 And then, 96 00:14:54,638 --> 00:14:58,516 one night, there also was a turkey 97 00:14:58,557 --> 00:15:02,227 that my mother had won at a movie theatre. 98 00:15:02,268 --> 00:15:05,312 It was fat and filthy. 99 00:15:05,353 --> 00:15:10,649 Its remaining feathers were damp and stinky. 100 00:15:24,788 --> 00:15:27,123 Don't cry, my darling. 101 00:15:27,164 --> 00:15:29,457 Do like mama. 102 00:15:29,498 --> 00:15:31,958 Push. Push. 103 00:15:34,502 --> 00:15:36,253 Push, my love. 104 00:16:04,197 --> 00:16:06,824 Don't cry, my darling. Do like mama. 105 00:16:09,910 --> 00:16:12,203 Do like mama. 106 00:16:15,497 --> 00:16:17,665 Don't cry, my darling. 107 00:16:17,706 --> 00:16:19,207 Do like mama. 108 00:16:56,244 --> 00:17:00,081 And then there was the word tamer. 109 00:17:09,090 --> 00:17:12,468 The tamer spent his nights digging in the garbage of the world. 110 00:17:14,970 --> 00:17:17,472 Only letters and photographs interested him. 111 00:17:27,064 --> 00:17:29,566 He carried every smile, 112 00:17:29,607 --> 00:17:34,570 every word of love, every separation 113 00:17:34,611 --> 00:17:38,197 as if it were his own story. 114 00:17:56,131 --> 00:17:58,591 The tamer believes that images and words 115 00:17:58,632 --> 00:18:03,345 must mingle with the ashes of verses to be reborn 116 00:18:03,386 --> 00:18:05,638 in the imaginations of men. 117 00:18:06,930 --> 00:18:09,349 You have to dream, Léolo. 118 00:18:09,390 --> 00:18:11,392 You have to dream. 119 00:18:18,440 --> 00:18:20,483 It took me a long time to understand 120 00:18:20,524 --> 00:18:23,193 he was the reincarnation of Don Quixote 121 00:18:23,234 --> 00:18:26,403 and that he'd finally decided to fight isolation 122 00:18:26,444 --> 00:18:29,155 and protect me from the black hole of my family. 123 00:18:36,036 --> 00:18:39,414 Because I dream, I'm not. 124 00:19:11,779 --> 00:19:13,030 Just the paper. 125 00:19:13,071 --> 00:19:14,614 Leave the trash. 126 00:19:14,655 --> 00:19:17,199 You can't do anything with this, it's broken. 127 00:19:18,783 --> 00:19:20,951 Even if the record was broken, 128 00:19:20,992 --> 00:19:24,410 I remember I kept the album 129 00:19:24,451 --> 00:19:26,453 for the beauty of its cover. 130 00:19:58,401 --> 00:20:00,236 Leo, I'm payin' you to work. 131 00:21:02,881 --> 00:21:05,675 Pick up the rest, Leo, and put it in the car. 132 00:21:08,552 --> 00:21:10,887 Kid's a good worker, isn't he? 133 00:21:12,388 --> 00:21:14,473 Fernand... you don't listen. 134 00:21:15,807 --> 00:21:17,308 Paper is my business. 135 00:21:20,102 --> 00:21:24,106 You can't go on hurting me like this, you know. Deal? 136 00:21:32,572 --> 00:21:34,198 Lozeau... 137 00:21:35,199 --> 00:21:37,075 Listen to me, Lozeau. 138 00:21:37,116 --> 00:21:40,577 You'll have to pick another alley, 139 00:21:40,618 --> 00:21:43,203 'cause this one's ours. 140 00:21:52,837 --> 00:21:53,987 Fernand! 141 00:21:54,479 --> 00:21:56,439 Since that day, 142 00:21:56,480 --> 00:22:00,984 fear had given my brother Fernand a reason for living. 143 00:22:23,837 --> 00:22:27,340 Kid, put some more rock. It's gotta be heavy. 144 00:22:34,722 --> 00:22:37,141 Pour it on. It don't matter if it spills over. 145 00:23:19,075 --> 00:23:22,036 Fernand would no longer fear anyone. 146 00:23:22,077 --> 00:23:24,737 And when my brother becomes a mountain, 147 00:23:24,888 --> 00:23:27,538 I too will no longer be afraid. 148 00:23:27,756 --> 00:23:30,216 And I shall walk all the alleys of the world 149 00:23:30,257 --> 00:23:33,343 and tell the wretched of this earth what I think of them. 150 00:23:34,635 --> 00:23:37,804 Cursed be those who will not bow as we walk by. 151 00:23:37,845 --> 00:23:41,723 Even the Arabs and the Jews will fear me, 152 00:23:41,764 --> 00:23:45,851 so tall will I be on my brother's shoulders. 153 00:24:10,292 --> 00:24:12,544 I'm an early riser. 154 00:24:12,585 --> 00:24:16,297 Awaking from the kingdom of dreams is brutal. 155 00:24:19,300 --> 00:24:22,136 I sleep with Fernand, I always have. 156 00:24:22,177 --> 00:24:25,430 A large bed. My grand-parents' bed, 157 00:24:25,471 --> 00:24:28,348 worn out by my parents and abused by us. 158 00:24:28,389 --> 00:24:32,518 My hand scratches wads of gum from the time when my father 159 00:24:32,559 --> 00:24:36,813 was afraid to wake my mother with his boozy beery breath. 160 00:24:43,778 --> 00:24:47,323 Cursed be those who will not bow as we walk by. 161 00:24:49,616 --> 00:24:51,326 Even the Arabs and the Jews 162 00:24:52,702 --> 00:24:55,079 will fear me, 163 00:24:55,120 --> 00:24:58,706 so tall I will be on my brother's shoulders. 164 00:25:56,889 --> 00:25:59,349 If you wash your hands you can sit down and have some pie. 165 00:26:58,950 --> 00:27:01,619 Don't worry. It's like brand new. Still wrapped in plastic. 166 00:27:33,567 --> 00:27:35,819 My grandfather was not a mean man. 167 00:27:35,860 --> 00:27:38,863 Yet he'd already tried to kill me. 168 00:27:51,876 --> 00:27:54,753 Children, be careful not to splash grandpa. 169 00:27:54,794 --> 00:27:56,962 Come eat some chips. 170 00:28:20,402 --> 00:28:21,552 Grandpa! 171 00:28:29,411 --> 00:28:31,871 I remember not being afraid 172 00:28:33,362 --> 00:28:37,282 and dreaming about the beauty of the treasure... 173 00:28:38,225 --> 00:28:40,644 Perhaps because I knew I was already dead. 174 00:28:55,927 --> 00:28:59,805 I mostly remember the whiteness of that light 175 00:29:00,971 --> 00:29:04,432 that I saw for the first time. 176 00:29:31,510 --> 00:29:33,887 Albert! Let go of the kid! 177 00:29:35,471 --> 00:29:37,764 Let go of him, Albert! You're gonna kill 'im! 178 00:29:41,623 --> 00:29:44,083 It was a frightening cry. 179 00:29:44,124 --> 00:29:48,211 A huge "I love you" that resonated from the depth of her soul. 180 00:29:51,214 --> 00:29:53,424 I love you, Ma. 181 00:29:57,845 --> 00:30:00,305 My mother had the strength of a frigate 182 00:30:00,346 --> 00:30:02,449 ploughing through troubled water. 183 00:30:04,617 --> 00:30:06,827 Albert, let go! 184 00:30:15,460 --> 00:30:17,587 Try to be nice, this time, Leo. 185 00:30:17,628 --> 00:30:22,716 Léolo, Ma! Léolo Lozeau. 186 00:30:22,757 --> 00:30:24,592 Sure, Antonio. 187 00:30:24,633 --> 00:30:28,470 But talk to the doctor, it's for your own good. 188 00:30:49,240 --> 00:30:53,077 Sometimes, at the hospital, there were also my sister Nanette, 189 00:30:55,287 --> 00:30:57,289 my sister Rita, 190 00:31:00,166 --> 00:31:02,168 my brother Fernand, 191 00:31:05,087 --> 00:31:07,172 and my father. 192 00:31:08,506 --> 00:31:12,343 As if my grandfather's legacy had exploded within the family 193 00:31:12,384 --> 00:31:15,428 and that little extra cell 194 00:31:15,469 --> 00:31:18,180 had lodged itself in everybody's brain. 195 00:31:25,604 --> 00:31:27,689 Good morning. 196 00:31:30,400 --> 00:31:32,318 Who talks first today? 197 00:31:36,405 --> 00:31:38,407 Why not you, Leo? 198 00:31:50,210 --> 00:31:54,297 Because my name is... 199 00:31:55,715 --> 00:31:57,550 Léolo Lozone. 200 00:31:58,409 --> 00:32:00,828 And you don't talk about people you don't know. 201 00:32:47,665 --> 00:32:50,876 Edged on by her mother, she cried for Sicily. 202 00:32:52,669 --> 00:32:55,296 Her plaintive voice was close to good. 203 00:32:59,383 --> 00:33:02,844 At the time, the few years between our ages 204 00:33:02,885 --> 00:33:05,304 seemed to me an impassable frontier, 205 00:33:11,393 --> 00:33:15,480 and I lived my desire in silence. 206 00:33:45,051 --> 00:33:49,388 We were rarely together at home 207 00:33:49,429 --> 00:33:52,014 and we looked like a real family. 208 00:33:56,435 --> 00:33:58,895 Will you stop day-dreaming? 209 00:33:58,936 --> 00:34:01,063 You're better off studying than scribbling. 210 00:34:04,713 --> 00:34:06,694 My father was a man like so many others. 211 00:34:08,117 --> 00:34:11,120 A dog that bit his bitch of a life. 212 00:34:11,957 --> 00:34:16,670 He was a small, stout, jowly, with red cheeks. 213 00:34:17,424 --> 00:34:20,009 Wrinkles line his face but reveal nothing 214 00:34:20,743 --> 00:34:23,999 but the age that dug them. 215 00:34:24,895 --> 00:34:28,148 Somewhere between good morning and goodbye, 216 00:34:28,189 --> 00:34:32,026 an eternal untouched noon, pricked by a silver of time. 217 00:34:32,653 --> 00:34:35,072 A forehead that stretched beyond his chin 218 00:34:35,113 --> 00:34:39,583 into a neck that clung desperately to bulging shoulders. 219 00:34:45,577 --> 00:34:46,828 Nanette. 220 00:34:46,869 --> 00:34:50,581 My pretty Nanette, I'm not mad at you. 221 00:34:53,000 --> 00:34:55,794 At times, their lunacies harmonized. 222 00:34:58,004 --> 00:35:00,798 And it was easy to visit them in the main hall on Sunday morning. 223 00:35:03,175 --> 00:35:05,135 At other times, 224 00:35:05,176 --> 00:35:07,845 you had to go everywhere to see everyone, 225 00:35:07,886 --> 00:35:10,179 and the corridors were immense. 226 00:35:12,890 --> 00:35:15,893 Sometimes, it took an entire day. 227 00:35:29,031 --> 00:35:30,532 Leo... 228 00:35:39,040 --> 00:35:41,333 They stole my baby, Leo. 229 00:35:44,210 --> 00:35:46,128 They stole my baby. 230 00:35:55,901 --> 00:35:59,321 Those were our beautiful winter Sundays... 231 00:36:05,244 --> 00:36:07,246 Strange, 232 00:36:07,983 --> 00:36:10,944 harrowing, 233 00:36:10,985 --> 00:36:13,153 stinking, 234 00:36:13,194 --> 00:36:15,237 with no friends, 235 00:36:15,278 --> 00:36:17,280 and no light, 236 00:36:18,990 --> 00:36:21,367 hidden in the bowels of the earth, 237 00:36:22,502 --> 00:36:24,345 my sister, 238 00:36:24,442 --> 00:36:26,777 Queen Rita, 239 00:36:27,294 --> 00:36:30,714 had become the curator of my bestiary. 240 00:38:25,968 --> 00:38:28,512 I'm keeping your jar of bugs. 241 00:38:28,553 --> 00:38:31,430 Oh no, Rita, not my deerflies. 242 00:38:31,471 --> 00:38:33,473 Here, take this but not my deerflies. 243 00:38:58,945 --> 00:39:00,095 Leo! 244 00:39:17,229 --> 00:39:19,439 Wait, 'pa! 245 00:39:21,548 --> 00:39:25,468 Don't push, pa! Don't push! You'll be pleased! 246 00:39:40,716 --> 00:39:43,885 My father was as gung-ho as a baseball coach. 247 00:39:45,803 --> 00:39:49,890 He was proud as if I'd come back from war. 248 00:39:56,777 --> 00:39:58,695 My love! 249 00:39:59,696 --> 00:40:02,115 My beautiful love! 250 00:40:02,940 --> 00:40:05,901 She was warm and loving. 251 00:40:05,942 --> 00:40:07,401 My only love. 252 00:40:07,442 --> 00:40:09,944 I loved it when she pulled me into her fat. 253 00:40:11,737 --> 00:40:14,948 The smell of her sweat soothed me. 254 00:40:18,826 --> 00:40:22,287 One night, my father discovered our hideout 255 00:40:22,328 --> 00:40:25,247 and barred the door to the cellar. 256 00:40:38,551 --> 00:40:41,011 Trapped in the daylight, 257 00:40:41,052 --> 00:40:45,056 alone, without a kingdom, 258 00:40:47,183 --> 00:40:50,060 without a swarming of the flies to calm her down, 259 00:40:51,686 --> 00:40:53,771 my fragile little sister, 260 00:40:55,189 --> 00:40:57,149 Queen Rita, 261 00:40:57,941 --> 00:41:00,860 drifted away. 262 00:41:32,600 --> 00:41:35,603 When he was younger, Fernand had problems in school. 263 00:41:37,396 --> 00:41:38,939 In grade 5, 264 00:41:38,980 --> 00:41:42,858 he was put into a class of retards with schizophrenics, 265 00:41:42,899 --> 00:41:44,859 psychopaths, 266 00:41:44,900 --> 00:41:49,032 a set of epileptics twins, a transvestite and an albino. 267 00:41:50,236 --> 00:41:55,032 Even there, he'd failed his exams three years in a row. 268 00:41:57,534 --> 00:41:59,661 Madame Lozeau. 269 00:42:14,175 --> 00:42:17,219 One day, a visiting counsellor 270 00:42:17,260 --> 00:42:20,263 asked him to draw something. 271 00:42:22,139 --> 00:42:24,724 After an hour, Fernand gave a blank page. 272 00:42:24,765 --> 00:42:27,392 He insisted he'd drawn a white rabbit in the snow. 273 00:42:36,275 --> 00:42:41,446 In the snow. On both sides. 274 00:42:41,487 --> 00:42:44,156 But it's here! Can't you see? Right here! 275 00:42:44,197 --> 00:42:45,740 But, Mr. Principal... 276 00:42:45,781 --> 00:42:47,949 Counsellor, madam. Not Principal. 277 00:42:47,990 --> 00:42:50,075 Mr. Counsellor. 278 00:42:53,078 --> 00:42:54,621 Then counsel me 279 00:42:54,662 --> 00:42:56,955 about a 14-year-old 280 00:42:56,996 --> 00:42:58,664 who won't go to school. 281 00:42:58,705 --> 00:43:01,999 I'm sorry, madam, it can't go on like this. 282 00:43:05,002 --> 00:43:06,169 Sorry. 283 00:43:29,986 --> 00:43:31,368 Come, let's go home. 284 00:43:31,424 --> 00:43:34,718 Three days later, he started working at Dominion Glass. 285 00:43:34,860 --> 00:43:36,403 Asshole! 286 00:43:36,444 --> 00:43:38,404 You went to school but 287 00:43:38,445 --> 00:43:40,488 you shit and stink like me. 288 00:43:40,529 --> 00:43:44,282 I could've gone till I was 40. 289 00:43:44,323 --> 00:43:47,672 If the old man hadn't fucked me 15 bucks for rent. 290 00:43:47,742 --> 00:43:49,298 Who did they think they were? 291 00:43:49,654 --> 00:43:52,370 They shoved me in a class full of dildos. 292 00:43:53,635 --> 00:43:56,137 Didn't think I was normal. 293 00:43:56,178 --> 00:43:58,873 Anyone hassles me today, 294 00:43:59,032 --> 00:44:02,473 I'll hit 'em between the eyes. 295 00:44:03,853 --> 00:44:07,773 Don't get smart, punk, we come from the same hole. 296 00:44:10,901 --> 00:44:13,361 And I got here before you. 297 00:44:13,402 --> 00:44:15,570 Don't play with the food. 298 00:44:20,408 --> 00:44:22,159 It'll soon be spring. 299 00:44:22,200 --> 00:44:26,204 The birds are endlessly bitching about winter. 300 00:44:31,000 --> 00:44:35,254 Fernand pipes in with a snot-filled snore. 301 00:44:36,059 --> 00:44:40,063 My stomach turns every time he breathes. 302 00:44:41,690 --> 00:44:44,234 He lies in fetal position, 303 00:44:44,275 --> 00:44:46,902 his little night-shirt barely guarding his decency. 304 00:44:48,820 --> 00:44:51,072 He rests, oblivious as usual. 305 00:44:51,113 --> 00:44:53,073 200 pounds... 306 00:44:53,114 --> 00:44:57,201 of muscle: A beautiful little baby got too big. 307 00:45:16,564 --> 00:45:19,149 The room is split in half: 308 00:45:19,190 --> 00:45:22,860 My side and Fernand's. 309 00:45:29,103 --> 00:45:32,815 His side swells as his biceps balloon. 310 00:45:49,247 --> 00:45:52,291 There's his radio and my record player. 311 00:45:52,332 --> 00:45:56,586 Fernand's radio has priority, since... 312 00:45:56,627 --> 00:46:01,131 he pays rent and his muscles mute my music when he gets angry. 313 00:46:50,855 --> 00:46:52,815 Bianca my love. 314 00:46:54,023 --> 00:46:56,608 My beautiful love. 315 00:46:56,649 --> 00:46:58,893 My only love. 316 00:46:59,107 --> 00:47:01,192 My Italy. 317 00:47:31,222 --> 00:47:33,599 No... Not that. Not like that. 318 00:47:33,640 --> 00:47:36,392 I don't like that. 319 00:47:36,433 --> 00:47:38,726 You know what I want. 320 00:47:40,561 --> 00:47:43,313 - One last time. - No. 321 00:47:45,940 --> 00:47:48,901 - Please! - No. 322 00:47:48,942 --> 00:47:50,526 Bianca... 323 00:47:51,652 --> 00:47:53,945 Bianca... For me. 324 00:48:06,764 --> 00:48:08,682 Léolo! 325 00:48:08,811 --> 00:48:10,813 Léolo! Come... 326 00:48:41,288 --> 00:48:44,040 One night, I finally understood 327 00:48:44,081 --> 00:48:45,957 where that light came from. 328 00:48:45,998 --> 00:48:49,626 It was Bianca who'd been singing to me forever 329 00:48:49,667 --> 00:48:51,752 from the back of the closet. 330 00:48:51,793 --> 00:48:55,797 All I had to do was to take the time to write. 331 00:48:56,309 --> 00:49:00,588 Bianca, my love, my beautiful love, 332 00:49:01,709 --> 00:49:03,711 my only love, 333 00:49:04,982 --> 00:49:07,192 my Italy. 334 00:49:40,184 --> 00:49:42,686 "John" and "Mary" were our guides through English, 335 00:49:42,727 --> 00:49:45,479 models of propriety. 336 00:49:51,318 --> 00:49:54,779 At school I thought I was the only one upset! 337 00:49:54,820 --> 00:49:58,156 The only one anxious because some details were missing 338 00:49:58,197 --> 00:50:00,240 on John's and Tintin's bodies. 339 00:50:02,200 --> 00:50:04,660 At 12, I knew what "nose" 340 00:50:04,701 --> 00:50:06,953 meant in English, 341 00:50:06,994 --> 00:50:11,707 and that the Congo was a former Belgian colony in Africa. 342 00:50:11,748 --> 00:50:16,085 But nobody talked about that tail that swelled between my legs. 343 00:50:16,126 --> 00:50:19,838 It was absent on the chart of "John's" organs. 344 00:50:21,506 --> 00:50:24,967 I didn't know the English or the French word for this thing. 345 00:50:25,008 --> 00:50:30,847 And for a long time, I believed the Anglos didn't have one. 346 00:50:32,640 --> 00:50:34,892 Casablanca. 347 00:50:34,933 --> 00:50:36,851 Capital? 348 00:50:38,269 --> 00:50:39,311 Dakar. 349 00:50:39,352 --> 00:50:40,978 Country? 350 00:50:41,019 --> 00:50:43,062 Senegal. 351 00:52:13,444 --> 00:52:14,653 Dammit. 352 00:52:22,452 --> 00:52:24,162 I'm coming! 353 00:52:26,664 --> 00:52:28,207 Open the door or... 354 00:52:28,248 --> 00:52:29,332 I'm coming! 355 00:52:29,373 --> 00:52:30,957 Wait! 356 00:52:33,751 --> 00:52:34,960 Wait! 357 00:52:35,961 --> 00:52:37,420 Enough! 358 00:52:37,461 --> 00:52:38,611 I'm coming! 359 00:52:39,879 --> 00:52:41,046 Now! 360 00:52:42,672 --> 00:52:44,423 Just a minute! 361 00:52:44,464 --> 00:52:46,716 I'll bust the fucking lock! 362 00:52:46,757 --> 00:52:48,550 Open the fucking door! 363 00:52:49,384 --> 00:52:51,552 - Open up! - Coming! 364 00:52:52,261 --> 00:52:54,846 What's going on? 365 00:52:54,887 --> 00:52:56,805 Nothing. 366 00:52:56,846 --> 00:53:00,140 I was taking my bath, the water was hot, I fried myself. 367 00:53:00,890 --> 00:53:02,683 Smells funny in there. 368 00:53:04,393 --> 00:53:05,543 No... 369 00:53:12,579 --> 00:53:14,455 Well... 370 00:53:14,496 --> 00:53:15,539 Anyway, 371 00:53:15,597 --> 00:53:17,807 shit, or make it shoot! 372 00:55:52,830 --> 00:55:57,822 I stopped seeing pink. Dirty pink. 373 00:55:58,203 --> 00:56:00,288 Dead pink. 374 00:56:01,502 --> 00:56:04,087 I don't feel my flesh. 375 00:56:04,372 --> 00:56:06,957 I'm not there. 376 00:56:36,504 --> 00:56:40,633 Drawn to pleasure, I forgot about Tintin, 377 00:56:40,674 --> 00:56:43,051 and about the Belgian Congo becoming Zaire 378 00:56:43,092 --> 00:56:45,135 in 1960. 379 00:56:46,302 --> 00:56:48,390 I was obsessed. 380 00:57:16,134 --> 00:57:19,470 Fernand couldn't wear himself out doing his push-ups. 381 00:57:20,502 --> 00:57:24,422 So he paid me to sit on his shoulders... 382 00:57:25,520 --> 00:57:28,648 That's how I began to enjoy reading. 383 00:57:42,446 --> 00:57:43,864 You don't want it? 384 00:57:47,202 --> 00:57:49,829 No. I don't like dead animals. 385 00:57:50,826 --> 00:57:52,869 Look at your brother, he likes it. 386 00:57:52,910 --> 00:57:55,454 And it's got iron in it. 387 00:57:56,103 --> 00:57:57,938 He's strong. 388 00:58:06,655 --> 00:58:08,865 What's this? 389 00:58:11,659 --> 00:58:14,036 I don't know. 390 00:58:15,871 --> 00:58:19,374 Maybe the pig had gallstones. 391 00:58:35,890 --> 00:58:39,643 As far back as I remember having a hard-on, 392 00:58:39,684 --> 00:58:42,228 Bianca was there. 393 00:58:42,269 --> 00:58:44,854 It was the name of a beautiful Sicilian neighbour 394 00:58:44,895 --> 00:58:49,274 who'd never seen Italy and occasionally baby-sat me. 395 00:58:49,895 --> 00:58:52,314 My grandfather helped her make ends meet. 396 00:59:02,574 --> 00:59:04,742 Not with scissors. 397 00:59:05,115 --> 00:59:06,616 Do it with love. 398 00:59:06,657 --> 00:59:09,034 I told you no, I don't want to. 399 00:59:12,653 --> 00:59:14,029 Here. 400 00:59:15,126 --> 00:59:16,285 Take 401 00:59:16,355 --> 00:59:18,899 everything you want. 402 00:59:18,940 --> 00:59:20,775 It's all yours. 403 00:59:20,816 --> 00:59:22,901 But do it one more time. 404 00:59:22,942 --> 00:59:26,320 - No. - Please. 405 00:59:26,361 --> 00:59:28,196 Just once. 406 00:59:28,237 --> 00:59:30,822 Do it one more time. 407 00:59:30,863 --> 00:59:33,657 Do it to me. 408 00:59:37,661 --> 00:59:40,830 When I was small, I liked to hide under the water. 409 00:59:40,871 --> 00:59:44,790 The bottom of our pool was sky blue. 410 00:59:44,831 --> 00:59:48,960 There was pirate's treasure in a gutted wreck. 411 00:59:49,961 --> 00:59:54,382 I started stealing to buy my first diving mask. 412 01:00:07,770 --> 01:00:09,730 Your titties. 413 01:00:09,771 --> 01:00:12,607 Show me your titties. 414 01:00:12,898 --> 01:00:16,651 I never knew whether to puke 415 01:00:16,692 --> 01:00:18,652 or jerk off, 416 01:00:18,693 --> 01:00:25,408 hate her or envy him so much I'd want to kill him. 417 01:00:28,911 --> 01:00:31,830 Do it one more time. 418 01:00:31,871 --> 01:00:33,622 No. 419 01:00:40,767 --> 01:00:43,227 Yes. 420 01:00:43,268 --> 01:00:48,188 They're old, and yellow, and dry. 421 01:00:49,560 --> 01:00:51,395 Even washed, they stink. 422 01:00:55,273 --> 01:00:57,191 Do it. 423 01:01:15,083 --> 01:01:17,919 Bastard! Pig! 424 01:01:44,854 --> 01:01:47,648 My mother offered us a beautiful rose made of plastic. 425 01:01:48,523 --> 01:01:53,461 Supposedly to brighten up the room because a flower is an image 426 01:01:53,712 --> 01:01:57,048 or rather, an idea of nature. 427 01:01:57,089 --> 01:02:01,134 The scarlet red is muted by the dust that buries it 428 01:02:01,175 --> 01:02:03,260 more every day. 429 01:02:03,301 --> 01:02:07,002 If only someone in the family would realize 430 01:02:07,102 --> 01:02:11,007 how unnatural this flower is with its little golden... 431 01:02:11,107 --> 01:02:14,142 "Made in Hong Kong" tag glued under a petal. 432 01:02:15,757 --> 01:02:17,326 Yet 433 01:02:17,424 --> 01:02:21,086 all it takes is an effortless gesture from me 434 01:02:21,190 --> 01:02:25,402 to take off the tag and begin to believe in the illusion 435 01:02:27,486 --> 01:02:29,905 But I refuse to touch it. 436 01:02:31,574 --> 01:02:36,870 I don't want to rest in this cemetery of the living dead. 437 01:02:36,910 --> 01:02:40,371 And now my toes remind me I'm still here, 438 01:02:40,412 --> 01:02:44,082 sticking out a hole in the blanket. 439 01:02:45,500 --> 01:02:48,169 Day after day, without realizing, 440 01:02:48,210 --> 01:02:51,421 I've slipped one toe more than the day before. 441 01:02:53,297 --> 01:02:56,842 Tomorrow it'll be my whole foot, then my leg, 442 01:02:56,883 --> 01:02:59,927 and soon my entire body. 443 01:03:01,920 --> 01:03:06,132 I feel I must leave this life before the rip becomes a noose. 444 01:03:13,459 --> 01:03:16,086 Hey, don't run in the hallways. Sir? 445 01:03:16,127 --> 01:03:18,788 Are you Mr. Deguire, Léolo's teacher? 446 01:03:18,835 --> 01:03:22,128 - Leo who? - Leo. Leo Lozeau. 447 01:03:22,169 --> 01:03:24,096 Oh yes. Are you his father? 448 01:03:24,102 --> 01:03:26,604 No. Just a friend. 449 01:03:29,148 --> 01:03:32,401 Have you read Léolo's writings? You should have a look. 450 01:03:32,442 --> 01:03:35,194 I've got forty pupils. 451 01:03:35,235 --> 01:03:38,446 If I gave each an hour more a week, I'd never leave this place. 452 01:03:39,822 --> 01:03:43,283 And he's like all of them heading for tech school. 453 01:03:43,324 --> 01:03:47,578 The brains'll write parking tickets, if they're lucky. 454 01:03:47,619 --> 01:03:50,288 Poetry won't fix a piston. 455 01:03:50,329 --> 01:03:54,416 But you're his teacher. You could tell him what to read. 456 01:03:54,457 --> 01:03:58,294 I'm the third teacher this year to take Lozeau's class. 457 01:03:58,335 --> 01:04:00,920 The first two were beaten up. 458 01:04:00,961 --> 01:04:04,005 My speciality isn't French, it's fucking judo. 459 01:04:04,046 --> 01:04:06,256 And I plan to get through the year. 460 01:06:03,456 --> 01:06:05,416 Leo, come to dinner. 461 01:06:05,457 --> 01:06:06,624 Léolo! 462 01:06:06,665 --> 01:06:08,750 Léolo Lozone! 463 01:06:13,796 --> 01:06:17,966 I loved Fernand for his sweet ignorance. 464 01:06:20,194 --> 01:06:23,280 Because I dream, I'm not. 465 01:07:36,728 --> 01:07:38,938 It's too tight, dammit! 466 01:07:38,979 --> 01:07:42,732 I don't wanna ride a bus again to pick you up in hell and gone. 467 01:07:42,773 --> 01:07:44,733 I haven't finished my sandwich! 468 01:07:44,774 --> 01:07:47,318 You're never gonna buy a bike sitting on your ass 469 01:07:47,359 --> 01:07:49,361 eating and watching boats go by. 470 01:07:54,074 --> 01:07:56,159 Gimme a hand? 471 01:08:36,699 --> 01:08:40,786 Listen, if your prices were better, I'd take 'em all. 472 01:08:40,827 --> 01:08:43,830 You always break my ass over 25 cents! 473 01:08:45,122 --> 01:08:47,499 As if I should give it away! 474 01:09:51,604 --> 01:09:53,856 It's 3 bucks for the pail. 475 01:09:54,398 --> 01:09:57,359 It's all rusty, Fernand. Fucking expensive. 476 01:09:57,400 --> 01:10:00,194 Have you ever worked in your entire life? 477 01:10:26,511 --> 01:10:27,970 Got one. 478 01:10:28,011 --> 01:10:29,929 Rewind and pull. 479 01:10:35,309 --> 01:10:37,102 Shit, I lost it. 480 01:10:37,143 --> 01:10:40,104 - I told you to rewind. - You said pull. 481 01:10:40,145 --> 01:10:44,524 - I said rewind and pull. - You said pull first. 482 01:11:03,651 --> 01:11:05,419 It's great you don't feel the cold. 483 01:11:06,154 --> 01:11:08,531 You'll soon be able to buy your bike. 484 01:11:09,136 --> 01:11:12,264 Gimme a good deal, Fernand. 3 bucks is too much. 485 01:11:13,648 --> 01:11:16,317 He could catch pneumonia diving in this fucking shit 486 01:11:17,526 --> 01:11:19,528 and it's too much? 487 01:11:24,157 --> 01:11:28,327 2 bucks. And I'll throw in 2 eels. 488 01:11:30,162 --> 01:11:31,955 Okay, I'll take it. 489 01:13:07,925 --> 01:13:11,219 Well, if it ain't the frog brothers themselves. 490 01:13:12,553 --> 01:13:14,012 Hey, Fernand! 491 01:13:14,053 --> 01:13:16,513 Ben Weider's been good to you, eh? 492 01:13:19,937 --> 01:13:23,023 It still pays to put little Leo to work. 493 01:13:23,677 --> 01:13:25,345 You won't scare us today. 494 01:13:25,935 --> 01:13:30,396 Want him to smash your face and have you eat the street? 495 01:13:30,437 --> 01:13:32,397 Hold this, Leo. 496 01:13:34,399 --> 01:13:35,942 Is this for real? 497 01:13:41,697 --> 01:13:43,824 Took your nose vitamins? 498 01:14:02,208 --> 01:14:04,293 Oh, that's beautiful, Fernand. 499 01:14:04,334 --> 01:14:06,210 Can I touch? 500 01:14:07,336 --> 01:14:09,296 Wanna see something really great? 501 01:14:09,337 --> 01:14:11,714 Check this out! Now that's gorgeous! 502 01:14:16,218 --> 01:14:18,845 Come on, Fernand, come and fight me. 503 01:14:19,512 --> 01:14:21,347 Come on, Fernand, fight me. 504 01:14:37,154 --> 01:14:39,114 Let's go, Leo. 505 01:14:39,155 --> 01:14:40,823 Fernand? 506 01:14:40,841 --> 01:14:43,593 Come on, Fernand! 507 01:14:43,634 --> 01:14:45,177 Fight me, you fuck! 508 01:14:45,218 --> 01:14:46,928 Drop your bike. 509 01:14:54,944 --> 01:14:58,197 Stand up, fight me! 510 01:14:58,238 --> 01:15:00,240 Fight me! 511 01:16:07,146 --> 01:16:09,106 That day, 512 01:16:09,147 --> 01:16:12,650 I understood fear lived in our deepest being 513 01:16:13,902 --> 01:16:16,237 and that a mountain of muscles 514 01:16:16,278 --> 01:16:19,990 or a thousand soldiers could not change a thing. 515 01:17:03,778 --> 01:17:07,740 Tired and found guilty for all the problems in my family, 516 01:17:07,781 --> 01:17:10,533 in a moment of utter despair 517 01:17:10,574 --> 01:17:14,077 I had decided to kill my grandfather, whom I liked. 518 01:19:32,119 --> 01:19:34,621 Leo, come to supper! 519 01:19:43,502 --> 01:19:44,794 Leo? 520 01:19:51,634 --> 01:19:55,137 Albert! Leo! Leo! 521 01:20:11,284 --> 01:20:14,787 Do you know what attempted murder means? 522 01:20:15,872 --> 01:20:17,790 You were never violent. 523 01:20:21,293 --> 01:20:23,336 You'll destroy yourself 524 01:20:23,377 --> 01:20:29,091 if you keep thinking your grandfather is totally to blame for the family. 525 01:20:32,774 --> 01:20:35,151 Your mother is strong. 526 01:20:35,192 --> 01:20:36,943 Very strong. 527 01:20:36,984 --> 01:20:39,361 She's a force of nature. 528 01:20:39,402 --> 01:20:41,779 She never caved in. 529 01:20:42,780 --> 01:20:44,990 In spite of everything she went through. 530 01:20:47,075 --> 01:20:50,912 You're a lot like her, Leo. 531 01:20:53,543 --> 01:20:55,670 I know your fear. 532 01:20:57,166 --> 01:20:59,372 But there's nothing I can do 533 01:20:59,472 --> 01:21:01,794 if you refuse to talk to me. 534 01:21:28,231 --> 01:21:32,276 To do my homework, I use half a small desk, 535 01:21:32,714 --> 01:21:36,968 unless Fernand needs it to count and recount the 42 bucks 536 01:21:37,009 --> 01:21:39,720 he makes at Dominion Glass. 537 01:21:41,998 --> 01:21:44,291 Twenty-seven. 538 01:21:44,866 --> 01:21:46,877 Expenditures. 539 01:21:47,218 --> 01:21:52,425 Movies... 540 01:21:55,440 --> 01:21:57,817 Two bucks. 541 01:22:02,447 --> 01:22:04,949 Had some fries. Fries: 542 01:22:13,024 --> 01:22:15,526 Ten cents. 543 01:22:18,105 --> 01:22:19,856 Bus... 544 01:22:20,185 --> 01:22:23,563 All I had to do was read or write 545 01:22:23,604 --> 01:22:26,273 and she'd come back and sing for me. 546 01:22:27,421 --> 01:22:29,673 The tamer was right. 547 01:22:29,714 --> 01:22:32,842 There was a secret in words strung together. 548 01:23:34,778 --> 01:23:37,614 Bianca my love, 549 01:23:37,655 --> 01:23:39,531 my only love, 550 01:23:40,310 --> 01:23:41,574 my sweet love. 551 01:23:49,339 --> 01:23:52,096 Bianca my love, 552 01:23:52,097 --> 01:23:54,140 my sweet love, 553 01:23:54,181 --> 01:23:56,224 my only love. 554 01:24:05,240 --> 01:24:07,283 A peddler shouts in the void. 555 01:24:08,393 --> 01:24:12,522 There's enough blood this morning to stain a hundred pages 556 01:24:13,557 --> 01:24:16,977 and enough people to buy them to appease their rage. 557 01:24:21,884 --> 01:24:26,054 I pull out my riffle and shoot at cars. 558 01:24:31,504 --> 01:24:34,048 I look down the barrel and aim at my father. 559 01:24:35,453 --> 01:24:40,634 I want to stick a firecracker as big as the universe up his fucking ass. 560 01:24:45,829 --> 01:24:48,706 Just because I'm waiting for the bus. 561 01:24:48,747 --> 01:24:50,874 And I'll be waiting next week. 562 01:24:51,875 --> 01:24:54,043 I'll still be waiting. 563 01:24:55,078 --> 01:24:59,290 Every Sunday, we take the bus to picnic on Sainte-Hélène. 564 01:25:01,125 --> 01:25:03,402 As my father doesn't have a car, 565 01:25:03,527 --> 01:25:06,839 it's our bit of the country in the city. 566 01:25:07,670 --> 01:25:11,465 At the docks, we get bored watching boats sail away 567 01:25:12,030 --> 01:25:14,532 we will never sail on. 568 01:25:14,844 --> 01:25:17,555 And we eat cucumbers on the grass. 569 01:25:31,568 --> 01:25:34,529 Maybe I should stick the barrel up my nose 570 01:25:34,570 --> 01:25:37,573 and blow my thoughts all over the place. 571 01:25:38,532 --> 01:25:40,784 The bastards! 572 01:25:41,369 --> 01:25:44,413 It sure would shock'em to see me blow myself up before I retire. 573 01:26:18,321 --> 01:26:21,157 Although instinct would have lead me directly, 574 01:26:21,799 --> 01:26:24,426 I still asked for her room number. 575 01:26:25,770 --> 01:26:28,647 I felt strange after I said her name... 576 01:26:29,584 --> 01:26:30,788 'cause it was also mine. 577 01:26:50,524 --> 01:26:52,442 Rita. 578 01:27:06,886 --> 01:27:08,971 Here, I brought my flies. 579 01:27:10,537 --> 01:27:12,539 You can keep them. 580 01:27:15,948 --> 01:27:17,616 Rita? 581 01:27:32,547 --> 01:27:36,050 That was the only time I dared caress my sister. 582 01:27:38,174 --> 01:27:43,387 And all I could think of was a wonderful scene in a movie. 583 01:27:45,055 --> 01:27:47,348 And as always, 584 01:27:47,389 --> 01:27:49,766 I was a spectator of my own life. 585 01:28:00,638 --> 01:28:05,058 Leo Lozeau, I don't want to see you bring live animals in the hospital. 586 01:28:08,269 --> 01:28:10,271 Don't keep that in your room, it stinks! 587 01:29:52,742 --> 01:29:55,119 Coward! Coward! 588 01:30:13,929 --> 01:30:16,014 I wouldn't dare?! 589 01:30:16,055 --> 01:30:20,225 Put 5 bucks on the table and I'll do it. You guys don't have the balls. 590 01:30:20,266 --> 01:30:22,893 5 bucks on the table and I'll do it. 591 01:30:22,934 --> 01:30:25,394 None of youse man enough. 592 01:30:25,435 --> 01:30:30,565 Not you, not you. None of you. Put 5 bucks on the table and I'll do it. 593 01:31:04,974 --> 01:31:07,935 Tonight, the Godin kid will be late for home. 594 01:31:07,976 --> 01:31:09,978 His mom will check his fingers. 595 01:31:10,978 --> 01:31:14,356 She's really worried her son might be smoking. 596 01:31:16,432 --> 01:31:20,436 No, Madame Godin! Your son fucks anything that moves. 597 01:31:21,353 --> 01:31:24,062 His dick is eaten up by bugs. 598 01:31:24,362 --> 01:31:27,498 He swallows any pill he can just to forget you. 599 01:31:28,146 --> 01:31:32,899 The bath you make him take before church, 600 01:31:32,961 --> 01:31:35,546 he uses to trick with his hockey coach. 601 01:31:37,308 --> 01:31:41,186 White meat sells better. 602 01:31:41,319 --> 01:31:43,612 But no, don't worry. 603 01:31:44,362 --> 01:31:46,663 He doesn't smoke. It makes him choke. 604 01:32:03,070 --> 01:32:07,704 Sex, I discovered between ignorance and horror. 605 01:32:10,707 --> 01:32:12,750 Deep down, we all knew 606 01:32:12,791 --> 01:32:16,377 that money was just a pretext, 607 01:32:16,418 --> 01:32:19,003 and that he'd do it anyway. 608 01:32:20,288 --> 01:32:22,790 The betting just defanged the fear. 609 01:32:33,592 --> 01:32:36,094 The poor cat didn't defend herself. 610 01:32:36,886 --> 01:32:39,054 She'd been declawed. 611 01:32:40,064 --> 01:32:43,067 Madame Ouimet took good care of her curtains. 612 01:32:47,946 --> 01:32:50,615 How lucky you are, Milou! 613 01:32:50,656 --> 01:32:53,784 Tintin didn't have the Godin kid for a neighbour. 614 01:33:25,390 --> 01:33:28,684 I didn't have the courage of my love for Bianca. 615 01:33:30,047 --> 01:33:32,549 So I settled for getting it off with Regina. 616 01:33:51,859 --> 01:33:54,027 I'm coming... 617 01:33:54,068 --> 01:33:56,195 You smell good... Keep going. 618 01:33:57,571 --> 01:33:59,781 Faster, faster... 619 01:34:26,126 --> 01:34:27,877 Sometimes I spent entire nights 620 01:34:27,918 --> 01:34:32,213 reading and writing dozens of pages without seeing her. 621 01:34:33,348 --> 01:34:36,517 Bianca had become very demanding. 622 01:34:36,944 --> 01:34:40,005 She knew I cheated on her with Regina 623 01:34:40,070 --> 01:34:42,363 and she decided to punish me. 624 01:34:58,818 --> 01:35:01,529 Bianca! 625 01:35:16,691 --> 01:35:19,068 Bianca! 626 01:36:44,288 --> 01:36:45,914 Leo! 627 01:36:46,414 --> 01:36:47,915 Ma! 628 01:36:49,625 --> 01:36:51,627 Leo is sick! 629 01:37:07,934 --> 01:37:09,143 Leo! 630 01:37:10,940 --> 01:37:12,775 Don't do this to me! 631 01:37:14,507 --> 01:37:16,425 Not you! 632 01:37:17,185 --> 01:37:19,187 You're too strong! 633 01:37:20,646 --> 01:37:22,981 Get up! 634 01:37:24,012 --> 01:37:26,347 Don't go! 635 01:37:26,706 --> 01:37:27,929 Leo! 636 01:37:29,208 --> 01:37:31,835 Don't do this to me. 637 01:37:31,876 --> 01:37:33,794 Léolo! 638 01:37:47,284 --> 01:37:51,121 Because I dream, I'm not. 639 01:37:53,546 --> 01:37:55,548 Because I dream. 640 01:37:57,464 --> 01:37:59,365 I dream... 641 01:38:00,731 --> 01:38:03,775 Because at night I abandon myself to my dreams. 642 01:38:04,020 --> 01:38:06,564 Before I receive the day... 643 01:38:07,996 --> 01:38:10,456 Because I don't love... 644 01:38:11,306 --> 01:38:14,100 Because I was afraid to love... 645 01:38:15,466 --> 01:38:17,843 I no longer dream. 646 01:38:18,222 --> 01:38:20,724 I no longer dream. 647 01:38:37,181 --> 01:38:40,434 Because I dream, I'm not. 648 01:38:41,573 --> 01:38:44,373 Because I dream. I dream... 649 01:38:44,374 --> 01:38:46,709 Because at night I abandon myself to my dreams. 650 01:38:47,494 --> 01:38:49,579 Before I receive the day... 651 01:38:49,838 --> 01:38:51,665 Because I don't love... 652 01:38:51,724 --> 01:38:53,526 Because I was afraid to love... 653 01:38:53,579 --> 01:38:55,581 I no longer dream. 654 01:38:55,665 --> 01:38:57,667 I no longer dream. 655 01:39:06,816 --> 01:39:11,821 Reduce the Largactil chlorpromazine to 100 mg. Intramuscular. 656 01:39:14,574 --> 01:39:16,867 I no longer dream. 657 01:39:25,500 --> 01:39:30,086 Tomorrow put him in the ward with the rest of his family. 658 01:39:54,271 --> 01:39:56,147 You my lady, 659 01:39:56,188 --> 01:39:58,315 Bold melancholy, 660 01:39:58,457 --> 01:40:01,960 Solitary cry piercing my flesh, offering it to ennui, 661 01:40:04,111 --> 01:40:07,405 Haunting my nights when I no longer know which way my life should go, 662 01:40:08,989 --> 01:40:11,116 I have paid you back a hundredfold. 663 01:41:24,138 --> 01:41:26,515 You, my lady, 664 01:41:26,556 --> 01:41:29,684 Bold melancholy, 665 01:41:29,725 --> 01:41:33,061 Solitary cry piercing my flesh, offering it to ennui, 666 01:41:34,645 --> 01:41:38,440 Haunting my nights when I no longer know which way my life should go, 667 01:41:39,525 --> 01:41:42,861 I have paid you back a hundredfold. 668 01:41:43,715 --> 01:41:46,810 The embers of the dream 669 01:41:46,882 --> 01:41:51,510 Left behind the ashes of a shadow of a life you told me to hear. 670 01:41:53,011 --> 01:41:57,682 The white serenity, minute of eternity, 671 01:41:58,724 --> 01:42:02,185 was a dark-haired wicked waif 672 01:42:02,769 --> 01:42:06,507 who pierced my sorrow with a sharp and sacred breast 673 01:42:07,007 --> 01:42:12,748 Leaving only the remorse of seeing the sun rise on my solitude. 674 01:42:44,946 --> 01:42:47,990 And I shall rest my head between two words, 675 01:42:48,031 --> 01:42:50,158 in the Valley of the Vanquished.